Portrait
“Beauty is not an external form, but what it means.” Suzuki Daisetzu.
'Portrait' is a project taking place in the time between when my mother was diagnosed with cancer until now where my family relationships have been altered and darkened as well as my relationship with myself.
After the medical diagnosis in July 2015, which was a complete surprise; the anxiety to know what would be the next step, the vast gulf where you do not find anywhere to hold on to, I was in a mood where I was trying to be strong enough to be able to withstand the situation, but in another way my strength failed continuously. Not only did I have to support this external illness, but also fight against a depression that was starting to grow. A period where I have been completely lost, lonely and sad; where the days passed in a hopeless yet calm tormented way. As if in a battle field where things happen in a dark and silent way. As an endless journey across an inhospitable territory and unsavory times.
These photographs try to describe these struggles and contradictions: in an alert state, with doubt, restraint, and emotional depression. In light of what could happen, I have foreseen the possibility of a real death through metaphors and symbols. In an abandoned sorrow I spoke of silence as fear took hold of me and each state of mixed feelings which at the same time were so opposite. Each photograph wants to be a reflection of the different states with a cathartic intention, to the extent that they involve an exercise of introspection and observation - as an attempt to represent the indescribable - to arrive at a certain acceptance and liberation. This is the reason this self portrait is at the same a cry of anger and hopelessness, a yell for help and an attempt of personal growth.
I have been inspired in the poetic work of Rinko Kawauchi and in Japanese art as a whole in the search of the emotional and simple expressions, turned in a symbolic act which is the reflection of something more elevated, and is outlined suggestive so the spectator can make their personal interpretation. This simplicity is linked to art and nature. In Japanese culture simplicity is a reflection of inner life and is perceived with a delicate feeling of melancholy and sadness. The different seasons make them sensations of transience, being that the nature of evolution is the temporariness of life.
With this type of poetry I try to find some sense, or at least dignity, for life through art: beauty is harmony. This means a poetic impulse in a sensory way that takes from the achievement of the work. I have tried to capture what is essential through the fragment that suggests the extensive totality: the vacuum is complementary to the existing. Essentiality is any manifestation of the spirit - understood as vital energy that breathes life into our body - which enables it to evolve, achieving a unity between sensation, perception and emotion.
'Portrait' is a project taking place in the time between when my mother was diagnosed with cancer until now where my family relationships have been altered and darkened as well as my relationship with myself.
After the medical diagnosis in July 2015, which was a complete surprise; the anxiety to know what would be the next step, the vast gulf where you do not find anywhere to hold on to, I was in a mood where I was trying to be strong enough to be able to withstand the situation, but in another way my strength failed continuously. Not only did I have to support this external illness, but also fight against a depression that was starting to grow. A period where I have been completely lost, lonely and sad; where the days passed in a hopeless yet calm tormented way. As if in a battle field where things happen in a dark and silent way. As an endless journey across an inhospitable territory and unsavory times.
These photographs try to describe these struggles and contradictions: in an alert state, with doubt, restraint, and emotional depression. In light of what could happen, I have foreseen the possibility of a real death through metaphors and symbols. In an abandoned sorrow I spoke of silence as fear took hold of me and each state of mixed feelings which at the same time were so opposite. Each photograph wants to be a reflection of the different states with a cathartic intention, to the extent that they involve an exercise of introspection and observation - as an attempt to represent the indescribable - to arrive at a certain acceptance and liberation. This is the reason this self portrait is at the same a cry of anger and hopelessness, a yell for help and an attempt of personal growth.
I have been inspired in the poetic work of Rinko Kawauchi and in Japanese art as a whole in the search of the emotional and simple expressions, turned in a symbolic act which is the reflection of something more elevated, and is outlined suggestive so the spectator can make their personal interpretation. This simplicity is linked to art and nature. In Japanese culture simplicity is a reflection of inner life and is perceived with a delicate feeling of melancholy and sadness. The different seasons make them sensations of transience, being that the nature of evolution is the temporariness of life.
With this type of poetry I try to find some sense, or at least dignity, for life through art: beauty is harmony. This means a poetic impulse in a sensory way that takes from the achievement of the work. I have tried to capture what is essential through the fragment that suggests the extensive totality: the vacuum is complementary to the existing. Essentiality is any manifestation of the spirit - understood as vital energy that breathes life into our body - which enables it to evolve, achieving a unity between sensation, perception and emotion.